Oh the joys of motherhood! Being a Mother for the first time is a mix of emotions! Let’s rewind back to my first day home with the baby after I was released from the hospital after having nurses attending me for 7 days. Let’s just say it was pretty scary knowing that now you are let out in the cold on your own to care for this little precious gift. Thank God I had my family and my husbands mother here to help me in the hardest time, which is your first week with a newborn. During the first week I was able to catch up on sleep and had a home cooked meal every day. My husband also was home with me for the first week and this made it so much easier to rest in between pumping sessions. <— A beast that I will tackle in my next blog post.

So, after the first week reality hit. There I was a first time mom home alone with my newborn. It really is true what they say…. your mommy instincts just kick in and you just know what you need to do. Not to mention I joined about every mommy blog you could think of and thank God most of my friends had babies so I was able to ask around for advice. The overnight shifts were brutal. I am not going to lie! To the point that I wanted to cry because I was so exhausted and was getting up every 2 hours around the clock to pump and feed the baby. I also found myself getting very emotional about everything and was starting to get stressed because I was finding it hard to find any me time by “me time” I mean like a quick break to make something to eat! I broke down one day because I was mourning the loss of our previous life. The no responsibility life. The going to sleep whenever and getting up whenever life. The let’s snuggle and not get out of bed for hours life. The let’s go out and have fun and stay out late life. Not to mention that I was now stuck indoors for months because the baby was too young to take out and I felt like a caged bird with my only sense of seeing what the outdoor looked like was what I saw through a window. But looking into my baby’s eyes made it all worth it. She was so adorable staring at me with her big brown eyes. How could I not love her? 🙂 This was my new life and yes I missed our old life but she is so worth it!

Fast forward to when I finally got into a routine of things. We got very lucky because we have a great baby that loves to sleep! She quickly got into a 4 hour nap schedule throughout the day and night. Then she moved into a 5-6 hour sleep schedule and now we are working on a 6-8 hour sleep (I know, I know we are counting our blessings!). Things were starting to lighten up. I was in a routine with my husband and I would watch the baby during the day while he worked and then when he came home from work I would sleep for a few hours and then get ready for the night shift to do it all over again the next day. My life consists of pumping, washing bottles, kissing tiny little hands and toes and feeding the most adorable baby ever. 🙂

3 months later

This is where I am today. We are now learning to tackle a new beast—> getting to places on time with a new baby hahaha! It’s almost impossible. Just when you think you have it all figured out….. your baby poops, spits up or gets hungry. Never fails! LOL! Life is now different but I love having her around. I couldn’t picture life without her now. Her everyday smiles brighten up my day. I’ve learned to multitask with a baby in one hand and using my other hand to do what I need to do. Things take much longer to do like getting ready and doing my makeup. Not to mention the mental checklist I need to go through before we leave the house to make sure I didn’t leave anything behind. Ok…. wipes, diapers, milk, bib, receiving blankets….. and the list goes on and on. Since I pump breast milk for my baby I have to also bring my pump everywhere with me….. FUN! <—NOT! LOL. Let’s just say I exchanged my purse for a diaper bag. I now travel with about 2 baby bags. My hormones are still adjusting so by the time I finish all this and I am ready to head out the door I am already drenched in sweat haha!

I have learned in my 3 months of being a mother that you just need to let go and ride the wave. This is a HUGE change but it is such a blessing. Don’t get carried away because the dishes are dirty or your apartment is a mess because you can’t find time to do it with a newborn. Trust me we ALL have been there (Don’t lie). Sooner or later you will get the hang of it. ENJOY your baby! Believe me time goes by so fast! I can’t believe my baby is almost 3 months already! I feel like I just had her the other day. Remember new mommies it’s okay to not know what you are doing! Don’t expect to be perfect the moment you bring your baby home. As first time mothers we are always learning and there is nothing wrong with that. Stand up for what you believe is right for your child and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise just because they have more experience. Seek wise advice when needed but don’t beat yourself up about things. You and your baby are still getting to know each other. 🙂 You can do it momma! ❤

 

With Love,

Eli<3

Month 1

Month 2

Stay tuned for Mali’s 3 month photoshoot on my instagram this friday 1/19/17!